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So, as you read in my last post, AGES AGO....I said I was going to talk about how I over come my cravings! 
I am NO LONGER a professional at this and need to start all over again.  Boy oh boy, justification sure can play a big role where food is concerned.  I have been eating healthy and in moderation...but added some of my favorites cheese, nuts, then a bit of sugar (just a crumb...which turned into a whole piece of cake today!) Also, made some NEW recipes for a catering event AND beause it was such a new food to me I had to taste it...that's the only legit cheat this whole week...the food was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO good that I have been eating leftovers for 2 days!!! All I needed was a bite to make sure it was delicious for my clients....but there went another and another and...well you get the idea! 
I have not gained any weight, but have not lost either. (THANK YOU LORD) But, Now is the time to get a new view.  I justified "most" of the cheating because the new menus I created (Lebonese) were basically extremely healthy ingredients...but had olive oil...in everything! And honeyand mangos in a salad that I ate 4 TIMES today alone, 2 cups each time....man it was yummy. Healthy food...yes! On my phase 2 protcol...NO!
 How am I going to get past this?  Determination!  I will not gain back 87 pounds by any means, I will NEVER go back to that again, but I do need to regain my right view of food.  I can and do enjoy my food, but I only "need" what is neccesary to fuel my body...otherwise am I abusing God's temple?  And the type of food I put in my temple should not be defiled (processed, loaded with sugar etc)  I notice a difference when I eat healthy food.  When I ate that cake today, within 40 minutes I thought I was going to drop...I am not used to that anymore.  I love having a steady energy all day...I don't know what makes me think that cake will make me feel better.  I am not saying I will never eat sugar again BUT right now I am in phase 2 of my diet which restricts me from sugars, oils, fats and starch.  This is for my health and I feel so healthy why do I sabatoge it?
I read in a book that the desire for "treats" is a thinly veiled attempt at self-medication....what truth in that statement!  Our medication should come from our healer/ creator.....we think we deseve treats for certain behaviors as well...WELL we deserved HEALTH, more then those treats!  Cause you and I know those treats come WAY more often then not!  Justification!!!! Crazy thoughts??? I don't think so.
When I cheat, I am cheating only myself...why is it we think we need the extra?  Just a little won't hurt....or will it?...a bit of sugar took me to a whole piece of cake.  Why do I mentally/spiritually feel deprived if I don't get my cheese or sugar?  BECAUSE my energy level and health level sure does NOT feel deprived when I don't eat it! 
It is truely a spiritual and mental issue!  Pure determination and will, bathed in prayer and awareness of the truth of what I am doing this for, is the ONLY way to make it through for me.  Focus, focus, focus!

NO WAY!!!

Just a quick post today...tomorrow or Monday I will talk about how I get thru my cravings being a caterer and around yummy food and sweets daily!

The last few days I have been so busy I have not kept up on my laundry...losing weight means I do not have as many pants to alternate as I once had, so I was going to have to wear a skirt today.  As I looked in my closet I saw a stack of pants that my 24 yr old daughter shrunk out of and gave to me thinking I would one day fit them.  (The day she gave them to me I thought NEVER will I fit those short waisted thingsas I tried to fit them over my hips.) Today I decided what the heck...I'll try'em!  So, today I wore a new outfit...MY RED PANTS are you ready for this....size 7/8 in juniors...what in the world...just August 1, 2011 I was a size 18/20 in WOMANS!  Unbelievable what transformation I have gone thru!  Best of all, I am full of energy and feel soooo healthy!  Lovin' the choice I made...a few sacrafices for great reward!  Well worth the menu change in my life...CRAZY thing is...I LOVE the food I am eating and crave that first!

Happy days!
Jill
ps(I will try to post the piture of me in my red pants)

Things I thought while trapped in the air!

My trip to California at the beginning of the month afforded me some time to think about "stuff" while flying the skies...here is what I noted.

The little things I notice that make all the difference:
I can walk to my seat with out turning sideways and hitting people with my hips or stomach.
My seatbelt had a "tail" on it...I used to have to squeeze it together.
My hips don't touch the side of my seat...what? I have a few inches on BOTH sides!
I don't need the air blowing right in my face...I can breathe easy.
I an reach my bag under the seat w/o holding my breath and leaning sideways.
I can cross my legs AND put my lap tray down w/o it touching my lap!  It used to rest on my stomach and wouldn't lay flat.
I am not touching the guy next to me.
I just can't believe I am sitting on this plane with room to move, my legs crossed, very comfortable, not touching anyone...

I thought I would ALWAYS be fat, no hope...I tried many avenues, but I know God brought me to affordablehcgdiet.com   because there were to many coincidences.
I still struggle with thinking I am fat, because your body shape stays the same...just smaller...(that is until I finish toning) But in the mean time it is hard to realize I am smaller...except that I feel great, I can breathe, I can run...I mean really run!
I am strong with NO muscle loss BECAUSE starvation does not occur with hCG treatment because the extra calories come from the stored abnormal fat in our bodies...if you did 500 calories w/o the drops it would not target your body to metabolize the fat and would lead to loss of lean muscle mass.
While I am thinking of it...I want to inject that the drops I use are NOT the ones that were stopped by the FDA.  The ones I order are magnetically encoded and have NO hormone in them...believe me when I say this gave me GREAT comfort, due to my thyroid issues....like I said, I believe this was a gift from God to me!

Today it has been one week since I started my second round...I won't be on it long, I am already down 8.8 pounds and think 15 more may do me....then I get to really exercise!
One thing I learned by taking a break (which I was not going to do at first)
is how so very important phase 3 is!  We think the part of losing the weight takes us to where we want to be...BUT...phase 3 keeps us there. *** It take 21 days for your body to re-set the way you metabolize fat and carbs w/o the drops...***DO NOT cheat yourself out of a new well working system...of course you still need to watch what you eat in phase 4, but you will want to because putting junk back in your body makes you sluggish fast!  I like the healthy feeling I get while eating clean, but knowing I can still have that piece of yummy cake at my favorite restaurant on phase 4 w/o reprocussions is fabulous!!
Next blog...deals with cravings...for now anyway! 

Jill

I am thrilled!

I cannot believe I finally am getting this blog going!  I had "google" trouble of course it would be me and my GREAT computer skills did not help!

Well let me tell you about something I do know about...my great new and abounding energy.  Many of you who have known me for years, also know I have always kept going like the energizer bunny...but now I can put that bunny to shame!!!
My life was very frustrating to me, having gained over 70 pounds in less then a year without changing any of my habits...that I could think of anyway.  And it stuck with me! Come to find out I had a thyroid issue that was basically undetectable by the common blood test.  Until it began to grow so big I would choke on nothing, before this I was told all was "normal"  After an ultrasound they found so many goiters on my thyroid tissue that they could not even view the thyroid!  The right side of my thyroid they decided to leave alone because it was "hot" which usually means you have "hyperthyroidism"  However, the left side was the opposite and considered a "hypothyroid"...so I had to be tested on the left side for cancer...benign so far...thank you Lord! No need to test the right side because it was so active cancer would not have time to grow in it...crazy stuff!
In the mean time, I was diagnosed with sleep apnea, had to buy a $2000 machine so I wouldn't stop breathing in the night...boy could I snore...probably shook the whole house.  My husband used to say it comforted him, probably because if I wasn't snoring he thought I was dead!!!
I tried many things to lose weight to become healthier...the thing is...none worked for me, from watching calories to exercise to shake based diets all of it!  It was sooooo frustrating to me cause I know people probably thought I was a closet eater and was lying about all I tried. (That's sad I felt that way, but I did) However, I am actually a VERY determined person, if you know me...you know that!  And things were not working!
Then one day at church, pastor asked if anyone needed healing.  I always avoided this cause I thought there are people out there that are really sick...then it came to me in that moment, I AM REALLY SICK!!!  So I went for prayer.  And a dear lady I had known for years came to pray with me, I knew something was going to be different.  But I went home from church that day and took it all back from God's hands...but only for a few hours, then I decided I would get my mind off of it and dink around on facebook...This is where a new hope began for me...
I already had a friend that had lost weight on hcg drops, but it made me nervous because of the hormone issue.  I had done my share of investigating, but did not find info to make me take the jump UNTIL I saw that a college friend of mine was on a product called Affordable hCG Diet so I went to the link and that was it...enough info to convince me to buy at affordablehcgdiet.com.
I started my new plan on August 1 (actually the 2nd) and with in the first week I lost 12# and all the bad stored fat around my heart and lungs.  By just a few more weeks, I lost up to 4 inches around my lungs and I was running up stairs carrying loads of catering equipment without having to hide in a corner to catch my breath...my miracle from God! And no one can convince me different.
By Thanksgiving, I had lost 64 pounds by January 8 I was down 80 pounds (I did cheat a bit from 11/24/11- 1/8/12) but all in all...I calculate .5 pound lost a day!  Because I cheated those last days I am now starting up again...my 2nd round and thrilled once again at what a great program this is and how wonderful I feel.
My snoring/ sleep apnea is gone, no more machine...yay!! My thyroid is still large but it is not getting in my way of losing weight and while I was off the drops from 1/9/12 until 2/9/12 I only gained half a pound (after a good visit to my home bathroom after my vacation. tmi?) and I am sure it was all the icecream, pasta, pizza and other nasty stuff I ate while on vacation in Disneyland!  Even tho I did not end up with much weight gain, I felt gross and lacked energy...lesson learned!  I would rather run, play and laugh with energy then feel like I felt eating that "bad for you" food...6 days in a row ALL day long!!
To me it's not about being skinny, but to be able to live...some people think it works too fast and is not healthy for you...but it is not, I'll explain that in a future blog.  What I know now is I am WAY healthier then I have been in ages fast or not, drops or not and I LOVE it!!!  I am THRILLED!!!
So back to the thyroid still being large...I will have another ultrasound this month. But in a whole different weight category!